On a day like today, I feel F.I.N.E.
I feel anxious and sad.
I feel nervous and scared.
I feel excited and tentative.
I feel hope.
I feel gratitude.
On a day like today I feel bitter and resentful.
I feel angry.
I feel lost.
I feel overwhelmed.
But the very best part of all that emotion is that I FEEL. On a day like today I FEEL. And it's all going to be OK.
It's all going to work out in the end, if it hasn't all worked out, it isn't the end.
I needed to write this little reminder today. I needed to share it with people who understand. Just because I feel all these awful and wonderful emotions doesn't mean everything sucks. It doesn't. We are a wide range of emotion. We can feel so very sad and yet so hopeful at the same time.
To FEEL is the greatest gift sobriety has given me. And for that, it all goes back to gratitude. Gratitude keeps me sober another day. One day at a time.